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Woah, its a double post on the same day! Just had a sudden feeling to go put down my feelings, feelings that have been brewing for a long long time.

A few weeks back, I just had a talk with my dao shi, which is my cell group leader 'teacher'. It was about track. Yep, as you trace back to my second post, you would probably realise that I am injured athlete, a badly injured athlete at that. I really really feel very sad, very depressed when I cannot train, and its a feeling that I cannot describe.

Disallowing an eager athelete to run is like taking the legs of a runner, taking the fingers of a pianist. To be honest, track has been something I disliked alot, but since I am forced to enter track and field, I decided to just follow my fate. But after training and training so hard, track has become a part of me.

Track is probably one of the time where I can really let go of everything, and just let out all my anger, all the things bothering me on the track, on every single step I take on the track. And when I sweat it all out, it really feels good.

To me, track is the simplest thing. Its the only time when I do not need to care about what others think of me, the repercussions of my actions, but just run, run and run. My teammates have become a part of my life, track has become something I cannot do without.

Just coming back to the point of talking to my dao shi, I have come to realise that God should be placed above everything else. Am I unknowingly placing track above God?

God can give me the blessing to win my nationals, and similarly, God can take away everything he has given me.

*Prayer for the day : I hope I can place God above everything else. Above all.*