Had a really really bad week, including today. I went for every training, and yeah, it was really really tiring, one of the most tiring weeks I ever experienced in track. Things are not going well, I'm hitting really bad timings, not meeting up to my usual standards and lastly, getting back to an injury state. Really really frustrated. It really feels like no matter how much effort I put into every training, I'm not improving.
This is probably one of the tough moments an athlete must face, and I know its the moment that decides which way I head as an athlete. I'm really tired and afraid that I won't make it for next year's nationals. The feeling of watching my friend's improve, while I remain stagnant, and injured, totally ugh. Its not one of jealousy though, just more of anger and resentment towards myself, towards my own body.
And I'm facing the risk of another injury, right at the time when I need to train and buck up. I just want to train and train, no matter how tiring it is, but it seems that my body is unable to, considering that I just recovered a month back.
I need God more than ever now, and I will depend on Him. I will trust that He will be there no matter what happens, at least thats what I want to do.
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